Chapter 9: Ambiguity

When Jin Fubai kissed Xiang Yu she didn’t make any attempt to evade, her lips only trembled uncontrollably for a moment. Feeling ashamed, and as if unwilling to show any weakness, Xiang Yu took the initiative to lean forward.

Maybe Jin Fubai just wanted to stop at first, but she leaned over with her feminine air and he didn’t hesitate to deepen the kiss, decisively holding the back of her head.

The hot autumn air outside invaded the car and it became mixed with the air-conditioning in the car. Fortunately, this was a road where no one passed by, with the car door open there was no fear that someone would see it and they just indulged in their ambiguous action.

Ambiguous here is the same as the one used in the title ‘暗昧’ most often used in the context that they are in a type of ambiguous relationship before they have officially become a couple

Xiang Yu’s mouth was full of agarwood fragrance, and her mind seemed to be captured by agarwood, becoming muddled. However, afterwards, Jin Fubai was scalded by the cigarette between his fingertips, frowning as he pulled away.

He threw the cigarette butt into the trash can on the side of the road and when he came back he saw Xiang Yu smiling. Her hair was a little messy and her thin shoulder straps were crooked on her shoulders, yet they didn’t fall off, she smiled very nicely.

Jin Fubai sat in the back seat of the car again and wrapped Xiang Yu in his arms, “What are you laughing at?” Of course, she was laughing at his hand being burned by the smoke. For a person who is good at everything, because they forgot about the cigarette in their hand due to a kiss, they were scalded…

Xiang Yu didn’t say it, but after Jin Fubai finished asking, she lifted her face with a stern and serious expression, “Where were you burnt?”

“Hand.” His voice was full of helplessness.

The inside of Jin Fubai’s index finger was scalded leaving a red trace like a crescent moon. She hung her head down and blew twice, “Does it hurt?”

She was gentle at this time, as soft as her lips. Jin Fubai fiddled with her earlobes, thought for a moment, and suddenly said, “What kind of man do girls like you like? When they have a high status, you think that they are too busy or not considerate enough; when they are too low, you probably won’t even look at them but they have free time to accompany and fool around with you.”

Xiang Yu said, “Yes, you are the best.”

“Xiang Yu, you can follow me.”

He did not say a touching confession, nor did he say I love you, just the fluttering words, “Follow me.”

At that moment, she couldn’t say why but a kind of tolerance and warmth surged towards Xiang Yu. She even thought, what should she expect him to say? That’s it.

She stared at the mark on Jin Fubai’s finger and said, “Okay.”

Xiang Yu knew that she was desperate. No one will know if the traces she will leave in his life in the future will even leave a mark.

Jin Fubai took Xiang Yu wherever he went from that day on, he was free every day, but Xiang Yu started to get busy. The small and run-down company she had applied for before, don’t know if the chief examiner had taken the wrong medicine but Xiang Yu was now admitted.

Xiang Yu is now an office worker doing a 9 to 5. Sometimes when she gets tired, she asks Jin Fubai to take her home without even having a meal with him. It didn’t matter whether the weekend was a two-day break, you had to listen to the boss’s words.

Jin Fubai never complained about it or Xiang Yu working overtime, he could be said to be indulgent on this point and he had been ditched by her countless times and yet he had no temper. Only once did he half tease and half ambiguously ask her while sucking on her neck, “Is your boss a man or a woman, don’t they think that you are beautiful, why are you always working overtime?”

Then he seemed to declare sovereignty, blatantly carrying packed Japanese food for lunch or dinner several times. It’s just that Xiang Yu’s company is too small and the boss was not a knowledgeable person. After seeing Jin Fubai’s back, he only said to Xiang Yu, “Your boyfriend looks handsome.” That was it, they didn’t reduce her overtime work later.

When Xiang Yu told it to Jin Fubai as a joke, he almost laughed out in anger.

He had planned to take her to see Li Chi but after nearly a month they had yet to meet. Xiang Yu asked Jin Fubai anxiously, “I always say that this day is good but in the end, I can’t make it. Do your friends think I’m the type that goes back on my words?”

“How could they feel like that, they’re a group of idlers.” Jin Fubai said. As a lover, he was really the gentlest kind, he won’t take the initiative to quarrel and won’t lose face.

In fact, how could his group of friends be idlers, all of them were considerably rich people, only Xiang Yu who looked very busy had only been busy for a month and only made 2,700 yuan. The boss’s salary was in cash and it was put in an envelope. Xiang Yu took the envelope and patted Jin Fubai’s front windshield glass, her manner was very domineering, “Let’s go eat.” 

The small envelope in her hand was thin, and Jin Fubai couldn’t bear to exploit her. He drove to a restaurant run by a friend and ate as he pleased, anyway, everything he ate was billed to him in the end and her envelope would not lose a penny.

The meal did not go as smoothly as expected.

Halfway through the meal, the Japanese-style sliding door was pushed aside, Xiang Yu turned around and saw two men: one dressed like a Christmas tree, with a thin pink blazer and a pale yellow shirt. The other, had darker skin, looking like he had bad intentions.

Later, Xiang Yu found out that the Christmas tree in front of her was Li Chi, and the person that Tang Yuchi’s said was “not good”.

The private rooms were separated by sliding doors and the doors could be opened when needed to make a larger private room. Now the door beside Xiang Yu and Jin Fubai was pushed open and the Christmas tree greeted them happily, “Brother Jin, I knew it was you. I saw your car just downstairs.”

Xiang Yu looked at Jin Fubai to see that he was not surprised or happy, and only introduced her, “This is Li Chi, and his cousin Li Mao.”

Before she was even introduced, Li Chi barged over from next door, sat beside Jin Fubai and stretched out his hands decked with rings, “Xiang Yu, I’ve heard of you, I’ve heard of you for a long time and today I’ve finally got the chance to see you. Sure enough, a beautiful woman.” Xiang Yu shook his hand openly, “I’ve heard of you too.”

Now that they ran into each other, they naturally had a meal together. Li Chi’s manner of speech was very interesting. As for Li Mao, Xiang Yu accidentally bumped into his gaze twice, and she felt that this person did his name wrong and was not very polite.

The Mao here stands for someone brave or heroic

After eating a few bites, the three men chatted while Xiang Yu took out her phone and sat beside Jin Fubai playing snake.

Xiang Yu’s snake had already become quite a long one, and it was getting harder and harder, not only to avoid obstacles but also to avoid his own big tail.

Towards the end of the meal, Li Mao, who had not spoken very much, suddenly said, “Have you heard about Zhuo Xiao?”

It was only now that Xiang Yu found out that Li Mao’s voice was not very good, he sounded very hoarse and it was very uncomfortable. After Li Mao asked this sentence, it was very silent at the table. Even Li Chi, who had been very active didn’t speak. Xiang Yu saw in the corner of her eyes that Li Chi moved his legs and gave Li Mao a hard kick, “You care about other people’s life so much, so gossipy.” 

It was due to this distraction that Xiang Yu’s snake hit the obstacle. What a pity, it was rare for her to be able to play for so long.

She intuitively felt that this was not a topic that she should listen to carefully so she clicked to begin a new round, and controlled the small-bug-like snake to slide through the screen with ease.

The person who was kicked continued to talk, his voice seemed like he was telling a ghost story, “Didn’t Zhuo Xiao have a mixed-race girlfriend in France? They have been in a relationship for several years and they were a damned affectionate couple.”

“Last year, the Zhou family married him to someone in the Chu family and he tried to commit suicide yet in the end he still married Chu Ranran.”

“I thought he broke up with that French girl, but the day before yesterday, I fucking saw him with that French girl.”

“She’s kept in a villa on the outskirts, like a canary.”

“Oh, what are you talking about? Where the hell would there be so much love in this world, I guess, it’s a French girl who knows how to live well, hahaha.”

Li Cji just laughed a few times before switching the topic and talking about a few stocks that have risen well in the stock market and then he talked about the logistics industry. The voices seemed to switch the topic to more serious matters.

Xiang Yu was very glad that Jin Fubai did not join in the laugh just now. For them, love is not a romantic feeling, but like a madman’s joke.

She was trapped in Jin Fubai’s tenderness for so many days almost forgetting that he is not her boyfriend at all. But compared to a boyfriend he is gentler and more pampering.

Li Mao’s words seemed to wake up, her gaze was still on the screen but her mood changed slightly. She was absent-minded and was only able to pass two levels in several rounds.

It was not until after the meal when everyone got up to leave that Jin Fubai clasped her waist and asked in her ear, “Will you go?”

Xiang Yu’s expression was as if someone had scared her and she had only just recovered her consciousness. The words “GAME OVER” flashed on the screen as she glanced at him, the meaning was very obvious, she blamed him.

Jin Fubai laughed, breathing into her outer ear, “Only getting to the second round after playing a whole night yet I am blamed.”

Li Chi had already dragged Li Mao to leave, and before leaving he warmly invited Xiang Yu to come to his place to play when she had time. On the way out of the private room, Jin Fubai uncharacteristically held her hand, clasping her fingers like they were a real couple.

Xiang Yu got into the car yet Jin Fubai did not close the car door but took a deep look at her via the mirror in the car as if to see through her emotions.

It was already October, the air became cooler as they descended deeper into the night, the breeze ruffled the weeping willows on the roadside and the thousands of night lights in Beijing melted into the evening breeze. Xiang Yu only drank a small cup of sake but she felt a little drunk under his gaze.

Jin Fubai carried a car key in his hand and used it to hold Xiang Yu’s chin. His eyes were filled with an unintended affection as he said softly, “Don’t go home tonight.”


Author: 殊娓

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